Reasoning loneliness

Have you ever looked back on your actions of the past and loathed yourself to see what you were and what you have become? Don't you find it hard to appreciate anybody who exhibits these aspects of your past which you loathe so much and can see reflected as though a mirror on those around you? The feeling of loneliness at shunning all out who reflect such things is unlike anything you might experience. Observing these people whom you cannot bear to even hold eye contact, these people whom you know would have been loved and appreciated by the person you were once, now long gone. My friends are few and sparse, for none of them reflects those aspects that I shun. Such a simple thing as fanatical Young Adult Book readers who actually believe that they are reading something of importance but in reality waste their lives on petty literature. And to believe that I was once one of them. I must have read the entire Twilight saga three times, along with such pitiful series as the Hunger Games, the Mortal Instruments, the Infernal Devices, the Caster Chronicles,  among others that I wish to erase from my mind for all of eternity. As I see these people who adore such books I cannot help but to look away so as to hide my face of distaste and scorn. The insecurity that led me to lie my way to a slightly higher popularity status in my younger years makes me want to wretch every time I see someone of the sort trying the same thing, trying to make seem that they are always of the same opinion as those who are with them at the time. I want to wretch not because I find a specific loathsomeness in the person, but because I pity this person just as much as I feel disgusted by them. For I know what it was like to be alone and to feel that the only way to get into someone's good graces is to lie to make them like you. But this is no excuse, for I am still alone, but now embrace my decisions and opinions, standing by them and fighting off scorn and dislike. The option is there, but people do not want it, since it requires them to leave their comfort zone and step into the light where they will be scrutinized by all those around them.
I do believe that I might require a higher level of tolerance, but at the same time can still not ignore the decisions that these people are making. To make this clear, I try not to offend anybody's personal opinion if I can help it, but I also do not have the hypocrisy enough to just let it be, and rarely find any sort of friendship down such a path...